A tough nut to crack

Today I had promised my older one that we will go to the park once the little one is done with her morning nap and both have eaten their lunch. I know G kept waiting but things turned out very differently. Lil g's nap did not go well, she did not eat her lunch well, for the matter neither of them did. I also lost interest in feeding them, imagine that!

Lil g was cranky and we went back to the bedroom for a diaper change and subsequently both of them have fallen asleep. There was a talk to read to G a book from the library but am so losing my touch with the little Dutch i know that i first needed some time to sit with a dictionary and figure out some meanings and we lost thread of that one too.

Finally in the peace that ensued, I ate my lunch and started with some cooking for the evening. As a stay-at-home mother, I still find it immensely difficult to manage meals, laundry, ironing, and also spend quality time with kids. Time for myself is rare and with husband, I am there but not really there types. I wonder how the working mom's manage it all. I still have no clue what enticing meal to cook for the evening as I know the kids non-interest in lunch was due to what was served.

Parenting is so exhausting, you try to do it all and then some things do get left out. I wonder how I will feel when my kids turn back and point out - but you promised and still never did it, or u failed me. From my experience, discipline is the key to it and long term planning, and instilling some traditions and habits unique to us as a family, like Saturday is for swimming, Friday evening for grocery shopping, etc. Sometimes, I wonder if I think too much about it, I mean after all my mother was working and she managed it very well too. Why do i think so much, too much thought negates all actions i think.

On this note, got to go........be back soon.