First post for September

I had a half written "new" post which I had been chipping away at. Just a ramble on a visit to a play park with the kids and how watching kids play brought back memories of my childhood. But it was not going anywhere so I abandoned it. Only thing I borrowed was the headline. What?? Well, it is true, this is my first post for Sep, and then there is this tendency to spend a lot of time worrying about a headline. But more importantly was letting go of what was not working for me ( a blocker of a post) and moving on to something that I could possibly approach with a fresh state of mind.

It's been raining heavily in the evenings the last couple of days. I love the wet-washed look of the ground and everything else the next day. Same analogy when you shed copious tears. I used to be those sensitive ones who could spout tears almost on demand. Am slightly better now, yet I can't keep a tight leash on my emotions and tears are the most calm, non-drama way of dealing with them, in private.

Strange thing about life is there are plans, always some plans. Either you plan or have to fall in with some one elses. Last night, there was a plan to make ragada puri. So I did that, though the plan was not mine entirely. Or in the day, we decided to visit Lalbagh, the first time for me in 13 years. All previous years, I was pointed the gate in passing and this time we actually visited there - kids, mil and me. There is more to see and if I could find a babysitter for the kids, I would love to be there amidst nature, Yesterday, we spent a quiet 10 mins watching two playful squirrels play with a bark of a tree and it was such a calm and rejuvenating sight.. We picked up some stuff from the nursery there, one was an aloe vera plant.

So, back to plans. Do you love plans or do you excel at execution only? One plan is a trip this December.  I can't tell you how I dread planning such trips. I wish for once I get to go on a holiday not planned by me. WHich will never be, so,,,,,Before that, a visit to Mom's place in the Dasshera holidays. First, sometime next week, a birthday, followed by Gauri Ganpathi festivals and monthly exams. Well, I am all set for preparing for the monthly reviews as of now, yes I am a no-fun person. But after I saw the results of the 2nd Monthly, I feel we could do better, so why not work at it. So, starting being the bad-cop from today.

This birthday of mine is still not the big-O. So taking it a bit laid back. In any case the hubby is not here to make it any special and I am not sieze-the-day person. So, besides treating everyone at home to a meal outside.... that's that. Boring, right. And I am already feeling mopey, perhaps it is the PMS. I am planning to at least dress up, otherwise it is so meh, and/or buying myself a couple of books. Actually I should be going out and doing a whole lot of things but there is something that holds me back. All in my mind.

A writing opportunity came and went, in the blink of an eye. Hits and misses. This one I shall miss. And then another one sailed in :) I watched a movie - The fifth estate, it has lovely hip-hop philosophy lines. Some will stay with me.

That's September so far.....
Until next post.