No back and forth...

When you begin something and don't end it properly you always have to go back and redo it.
Like those sloppily tucked away threads in an embroidery pattern, some carelessly dropped stitches whilst knitting....it could be things left unsaid, a course left midways....just about anything, even half cooked rice. In my case right now its driving. And I am furiously typing this post before I go to pursue a 2 hour driving class where I will probably learn about the same old stuff which I kind of know about - adjust seats, the mirror, indicators, lights, etc... stuff that kind of gets into the DNA of someone who regularly drives....they don't even think about it anymore....

And to think that I used to be one of them, all I had to do was to go and take my practical exam. I may very well argue, for the sake of an argument, that I had time, a good year and half to take the exam while I got ahem, more confident. This was all in the past, about 3 years ago. When we shifted to the new place, and that is after I had knocked the car in the most goofy manoeuvre possible, sulked over it a bit but remember I had been able to put that behind me and took on to driving  in the new place. I would ferry the kids to and fro school, the only way to get myself to the gym was to ride there,  same with shopping, likewise to pick up and drop friends visiting as the station and bus stand were a long walk from home. Yes, it was not easy, I was anxious, I would prefer going slow, I used to use the gps and also read google maps, preferred parking to the right, but I could drive myself from point A to B without depending on someone else. The prov.  license expired during my India stay and in the interim I have not driven at all.

Read somewhere about the analogy of driving and taking control of one's life and I totally agree to that. I have to do this, no matter how. And on this note, wish me luck people!

Comments

  1. Divya28 January 2017 at 19:30

    Best of luck! I have a driving license but still the confidence to drive has still not come in me...

    I am sure you'll take control of your life soon again :-)

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  2. Chatty Wren5 February 2017 at 10:00

    Thank you Divya, just cleared my practical exam, so looking forward to that for sure.

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