Update - slap dash one
Have been out of touch....not just with the blog! Wondering what to write about and what to leave out.....Each day is packed with so much...Work has just taken up the major part of my life.....and the bit about getting to work. Give or take a year and one would have thought I would have been reconciled to it....but clearly not.....most days am learning how much I do not know and need to learn...coming home to chores, cooking, kids' activities.......weekends are a different loop of activities.....endless......
Big G started secondary school...both kids in different schools....logistics of drops on busy mornings...tackled on a day to day basis. Big G turned 12....the swim party did not happen but clearly pre teens wanted to be on their own but being cloistered together in a small bedroom with younger sister tagging is still fun....i got the ganache right this time...two weeks ago had made a soggy cake for husband's bday...lilG had begged to join the bday celebrations but when her sis did not yield settled for a playdate with a friend and bonus watched a piano concert. Considering she is learning piano this year hope that makes for some motivation....previous year viool lessons were in vain..Oh well....
I have piled on the kilos during all this. The stress of not being to do it all on a given day....or knowing it all...I don't know if it is me who feels this way ..how do others cope with multiple demands.....I don't know what to give up, how to ask for more help than I do......clearly a disorder of sorts.
Lil G has her time taken up by music lessons and Big G surprise surprise with Bharatnatyam...and is loving it...she is a natural....unlike me...what?....I learn too, as I need to take her to less and bring her back and can't sit twiddling my thumbs for the space of the less..so two left feet notwithstanding I do my best...... but is my best clearly enough? a question I ask myself often and not just for this....
Sigh! I don't know....of late I have been too hard on myself for small things....that I am perhaps too easy on myself to balance it and status quo is maintained....Relationships, friendships have remained nebulous...i have not dwelt too much on this...been generally detached and tried to get through whatever...such that this is now become boring....need some more enthusiasm in my approach....
So here is where I end....i know abrupt, gawky, that's how I come across instead of the grace I love to see and admire in others....
Big G started secondary school...both kids in different schools....logistics of drops on busy mornings...tackled on a day to day basis. Big G turned 12....the swim party did not happen but clearly pre teens wanted to be on their own but being cloistered together in a small bedroom with younger sister tagging is still fun....i got the ganache right this time...two weeks ago had made a soggy cake for husband's bday...lilG had begged to join the bday celebrations but when her sis did not yield settled for a playdate with a friend and bonus watched a piano concert. Considering she is learning piano this year hope that makes for some motivation....previous year viool lessons were in vain..Oh well....
I have piled on the kilos during all this. The stress of not being to do it all on a given day....or knowing it all...I don't know if it is me who feels this way ..how do others cope with multiple demands.....I don't know what to give up, how to ask for more help than I do......clearly a disorder of sorts.
Lil G has her time taken up by music lessons and Big G surprise surprise with Bharatnatyam...and is loving it...she is a natural....unlike me...what?....I learn too, as I need to take her to less and bring her back and can't sit twiddling my thumbs for the space of the less..so two left feet notwithstanding I do my best...... but is my best clearly enough? a question I ask myself often and not just for this....
Sigh! I don't know....of late I have been too hard on myself for small things....that I am perhaps too easy on myself to balance it and status quo is maintained....Relationships, friendships have remained nebulous...i have not dwelt too much on this...been generally detached and tried to get through whatever...such that this is now become boring....need some more enthusiasm in my approach....
So here is where I end....i know abrupt, gawky, that's how I come across instead of the grace I love to see and admire in others....
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