As of now...

> I am constantly checking my to-do list. The more I keep crossing out, more stuff gets added, and I guess I may not get to the top of it...

> My patience with the kids is really going down. I can't blame them as they are in a similar state as mine with no school or structure to occupy them. It gets bad when my already poor packaging process gets undone when they shift stuff around. I also feel guilty that I am not doing enough for them with my own preoccupations. They have become addicted to the TV which is on for almost the entire day in fits and bursts.

> Pleasantly surprised that I am managing decently on my own - decisions, organising, getting stuff done  and I have started giving myself credit for it, instead of any external validations.

> I have decided there is no right or wrong way to do things, do it your way, the way you think is right. Contextualised enhancements to learning can keep happening along the way.

>Mom seems to sound more breathless than earlier when I call. I am not able to provide any comfort to her from far. And it is tough. Also the guilt on being so involved with my own life. Dad with the difficult burden of caregiver...parents seem to be so distant...

> So many questions about going... Whether its a right decision or not perhaps will get to know retrospectively. My big worry is the education of my kids with them having to migrate to a new language all over again. And the necessity of family being together which ties up with a whole lot of emotional, financial variables.  Have heard success stories of kids in higher classes too but there are gaps of learning and concepts which need to be addressed.

>I hate constraints posed on me, who doesn't? And the latest one I am battling is 23 kg for check-in baggage. Well, each each person, their their problem.

>I can't possibly fit in everything to take there and I must prioritize. So my once black t-shirt and almost threadbare pyjama has to stay behind.

>Goodbyes are bitter-sweet and tear me up. Yesterday, it was to Gayathri, the lady who used to cook at Muthajji's,  come in to make chaklis....then the girl who runs the beauty saloon, Hanumantha...who comes to water the plants and always plays with the kids...and often it is me who is more emotional than the other party.

>I have to get going with my list, there it is....fact of life as of now.


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  1. Bikramjit Singh Mann21 August 2016 at 11:18

    YES there is no right or wrong.. we do what we think is best and ot the best of our capabilities ...

    take care and keep taking items off the to do list and adding more .. LIFE goes on :)

    One bad thing about staying so far away from parents I know , I can understand

    Bikram's

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    1. Chatty Wren27 August 2016 at 12:11

      Agree Bikram, it is always about doing the best one is capable of...moving away from parents esp. when they are not in good health is the toughest part of it.

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  2. Divya21 August 2016 at 22:50

    Best of Luck with everything! I know how exasperating baggage-limits are! Whenever I leave home, it is such a pain deciding what to leave behind, and what to carry. Sometimes, it isn't about prioritizing - you know what you don't need, but the memories attached to that object or the comfort - you can't really just let it go. Goodbyes are tough too. Don't worry about the kids - I know it's easier said than done - but in the long run, I've discovered that all these trying times later make interesting stories :-) Good luck to you!

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    1. Chatty Wren27 August 2016 at 12:12

      Thank you Divya! lol, I hope we have some interesting stories to tell, as of now I have started envying trees who get to stay in one place :)

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  3. Sujatha Sathya14 September 2016 at 14:39

    Haha...23 kilo constraint on.check in baggage and so the pyjama stays back....that was funny
    Nice to read someone's day to day life and not be in the least bored .

    By the way, I had contacted bookbhook.com and have just finished one assignment for them. Thanks to your blog post :) Heard about then through u. Thank you

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    1. Chatty Wren28 September 2016 at 10:43

      thanks Sujatha! Oh that's great, you are most welcome!

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