Attention deficit....order disorder..
Hello folks, back here...had a bit of time logging in to blogger....was rusty with passwords...and that should explain the headline...So in case anyone besides myself who occasionally reads these posts...a big thank you and ...it's kind of ok if you don't bother to wave your hand. Can't say I am happy with my posting rate this year...but having dropped the bar on my blogging pace to maybe one before the year ends...I plod along here at times it is convenient.
Which for this post happens to be in the middle of a birthday party. You read that right....it's Big G's b'day party belated by a month...which was being put off due to some work from home weekends, non availability of her close friends etc etc. The menu is veg puffs, popcorn, cake, nachos....I seem to have missed one thing, not the guacamole but can't remember....yes right back to the headline, on the state of mind. The kids have gone to play out in the garden and get hungry....the husband is visiting downstairs neighbors and I am putting my feet up for a bit.....
Ok, so am back to completing the rest of the post after a 3-day long extended weekend.....the birthday party was a success....the girls chatted a lot, nonstop actually...well behaved too. Lil g had invited two of her own friends so that she would keep out of Big G's hair...convenient as they happened to be two lil sisters of Big G's classmates ....and so good for everyone......Seen some of these kids as toddlers and they look so grown up at 11, wonder how fast time flies....Ok, so now after that mandatory flashback to the party of a week before.. lets move to the happenings before and in between...
I knew before joining this project, or in fact in general I have a huge huge learning curve...so many things in my case. .driving, managing money, family, relationships, my own self...I really admire those who manage to do it all so well. I am constantly WIP mode for almost everything.....and when it is all at the same time...it becomes a bit much. I had a recent breakdown of sorts at work....I know not the most professional thing to do...luckily only two people saw the quick tears I wiped off....but tearing is something I am so prone to do in the face of pressure. Even though I've made much progress in learning...it is like trying to catch a moving target and I realize that I must make peace with it.....and play to my strengths...I certainly can't be superwoman....I have some helpful colleagues who really help me in my initiatives to learn.
My biggest trade off is time with kids...just does not happen during weekdays and weekends are cluttered with activities...we should have probably not enrolled in many....but project was only short term so went ahead anyway. I also realize that I don't keep my cooking that simple....and different fare to accommodate 'I don't like this-that' gets dished out, at the cost of time. Studies and taking responsibility for own studies - I see it's not 100 percent yet...have no idea how I can inculcate this in the kids, as it needs to be self-driven... Same for gadget time, we changed passwords....but sometimes some studies needs to be done via computer, so....need to moderate.
Household tasks - a lot of them rest broadly and squarely on my shoulders. Growing up to how my parents split up tasks and efforts seamlessly... I don't readily get similar support unless I ask for it.... a couple of times....and I do think it's unfair that I spend my weekends cooking, preparing, etc whereas FIFA2018 is played out on TV. Even if your spouse adores you and all that.....this being ignored does not help right? Though I must say, it's become better than it used to be earlier....
Family is a constant support and I really hope my father can make it here in the summer. Friends are a blessing....the one's I talk to often and the one's I learn from, be motivated from and that's something to be truly grateful for. Friends is a loose term for all the social connections that exist....U who has taught some Tyagaraja kritis in her melodious voice....L who empathises with me on women stuff ....ok I know not too many to name here :D
Summary posts or updates are my go-to theme this year...and perhaps will be that way...so long as I post....Wishing you all a very happy 2018 and hope it gives you all that you seek for and work for.
Ok, so am back to completing the rest of the post after a 3-day long extended weekend.....the birthday party was a success....the girls chatted a lot, nonstop actually...well behaved too. Lil g had invited two of her own friends so that she would keep out of Big G's hair...convenient as they happened to be two lil sisters of Big G's classmates ....and so good for everyone......Seen some of these kids as toddlers and they look so grown up at 11, wonder how fast time flies....Ok, so now after that mandatory flashback to the party of a week before.. lets move to the happenings before and in between...
I knew before joining this project, or in fact in general I have a huge huge learning curve...so many things in my case. .driving, managing money, family, relationships, my own self...I really admire those who manage to do it all so well. I am constantly WIP mode for almost everything.....and when it is all at the same time...it becomes a bit much. I had a recent breakdown of sorts at work....I know not the most professional thing to do...luckily only two people saw the quick tears I wiped off....but tearing is something I am so prone to do in the face of pressure. Even though I've made much progress in learning...it is like trying to catch a moving target and I realize that I must make peace with it.....and play to my strengths...I certainly can't be superwoman....I have some helpful colleagues who really help me in my initiatives to learn.
My biggest trade off is time with kids...just does not happen during weekdays and weekends are cluttered with activities...we should have probably not enrolled in many....but project was only short term so went ahead anyway. I also realize that I don't keep my cooking that simple....and different fare to accommodate 'I don't like this-that' gets dished out, at the cost of time. Studies and taking responsibility for own studies - I see it's not 100 percent yet...have no idea how I can inculcate this in the kids, as it needs to be self-driven... Same for gadget time, we changed passwords....but sometimes some studies needs to be done via computer, so....need to moderate.
Household tasks - a lot of them rest broadly and squarely on my shoulders. Growing up to how my parents split up tasks and efforts seamlessly... I don't readily get similar support unless I ask for it.... a couple of times....and I do think it's unfair that I spend my weekends cooking, preparing, etc whereas FIFA2018 is played out on TV. Even if your spouse adores you and all that.....this being ignored does not help right? Though I must say, it's become better than it used to be earlier....
Family is a constant support and I really hope my father can make it here in the summer. Friends are a blessing....the one's I talk to often and the one's I learn from, be motivated from and that's something to be truly grateful for. Friends is a loose term for all the social connections that exist....U who has taught some Tyagaraja kritis in her melodious voice....L who empathises with me on women stuff ....ok I know not too many to name here :D
Summary posts or updates are my go-to theme this year...and perhaps will be that way...so long as I post....Wishing you all a very happy 2018 and hope it gives you all that you seek for and work for.
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Hey happy New year. Loved reading this post.. I understand that pressure..kills you at a time.. Take care of yourself and yoir health
ReplyDeleteThanks ZM, wish you a very Happy New Year too! Hope all is well at your end.
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