Catching up...

Not planning to post updates from the last post in 2020>cause I have lived a million lives in between but the soul is the same. Phone memory is kind of full and my memory is rusty, I remember only what  I need to ...not all that I read or experience or go through; eyesight and likewise reminisinces are a bit blurry. I don't recall conversations just how they left me feeling. Which also means I watch my words it shouldn't put someone else  in a quandary or any yo-yo..

Publishing this very short post as I discovered I have been very much AWOL from this space. So have I  been very much present in the now in real life; nah I don't want to go there now. But one thing I realise is best to be consistent...with the walk, yoga, homework, housework.....catch up mode just does not work for all cases.,..if it does at all.....else just remove it from your to-do and live a bit lightly. If guilts, regrets abound ...your inner voice, maybe therapist will help work it out.

I did try talking to one when I was feeling overwhelmed last summer. How was my experience? I felt a mix of emotions seeking help....incapable, overwhelmed, teary, frustrated. What did I need to fix? Apparently everything! so when I could not do the compartmentalisation I couldn't focus on a particular thing and so I had to let that go. Maybe I will do better next time, as all the work I need to do is on my own and self-reflection while walking allows me to give myseld a look over crtitically and with some empathy, so I have now started to speak to myself.  Publishing this ultra short post, Jai Shree Ram!



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