Procrastination... Blogging Marathon 2014 Post 4

Ah, one of my favourite topics, actually, a way of life I think for me. Only a strict deadline with my back to the wall makes me go ahead with my tasks. That's being lazy I suppose.  But of course, everyday things are not what we are talking about here. Is there something I have not attempted to do out of unknown fear?

By the way, have you checked out the definition of procrastination. It's like opening Pandora's box, for me. One of the things I've been delaying and putting on a back burner is getting serious about exercise. More than losing weight, which is also my goal, I want to be fit and energetic. Why have I been procrastinating then, because I was not sure if I could keep up with the discipline that needs to go with it. So I've been making excuses like I'm not a gym person, and running on those treadmills is boring. But how did I know that, without ever trying?

It is only in the last few years I've realised I have been nurturing a fear of failure. So much so that I set the bar really low for me on most things. I see it sometimes seeps out in the way I write - a self-deprecatory tone to my writing. And I'd invite your feedback on this. Or the way I interact with others and couch what I have to say with so many disclaimers, on the defensive. Why should I bother about what people think of me, something over which I have no control anyway. I am entitled to my opinions just as you are to yours. And we can agree to disagree, right? And it is not everyday that one bumps into FB or blog pals or real life friends. And even then, so what!

There, these are two main things - one is fitness, as a goal in my life, and the other being more direct. Wouldn't say it falls under procrastination, but stemmed more as a need for being accepted in virtual groups and associations, like an external validation, which today I declare I can live without. So much so that I'm not even going to apologize for this outburst of a post in your feed :)

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  1. Anonymous5 January 2014 at 06:16

    I was nodding all the way through your post. You have hit the nail on the head. Procrastination stems from a fear of failure. I could also completely relate to the self-deprecation bit and the need to qualify your statements with disclaimers--that holds true for me too.

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    1. Chatty Wren5 January 2014 at 14:30

      Thanks for understanding Scribblehappy! It's taken me a long time to identify this in me, and work my way through it.

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  2. pankti6 January 2014 at 13:10

    Procrastination is a way of life for me too.. If something doesn't excite me (like folding cloths, arranging cupboards, washing school bags and shoes) then i keep procrastinating it!!
    And you are right, everybody is entitled to their opinions and should be able to voice them freely!!

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    1. Chatty Wren6 January 2014 at 22:17

      That makes two of us ZM, and true, it is mostly about doing everyday things. I watched a youtube video recently on this lady who talks about arranging her cupboards and closets - made it into an art almost. Felt worse after seeing it:)

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